A little over two years has flown by. I could recount those two years to you. But really... Some things are best left in the past. Lets just catch up to the current. Alice is now an amazing little 2 and 1/2 year old. Having been an incredibly challenging infant she has turned into the easiest toddler I could imagine. Smart, fun loving and full of drama. Everyone who knows her constantly has to remind themselves that she is only 2. For she neither looks not acts her age. And my dear sweet Elijah. He has a huge heart and a smile for everyone he meets. He's all boy- an adventurous, dare devil, sports loving, break dancing ninja. He has become the best big brother... And I for one am so proud to see the little boy he is becoming.
I wish I could take credit for the amazing little people they are. I wish I could say that it was all me. That I did everything right. But in all honesty... I know it is our Heavenly Father and Creator that all thanks is due. I haven't been the perfect mother and they have had a pretty rough time this last year. But I prayed, my family prayed, my friends prayed... And God answered our prayers. He protected my children. He guarded their hearts and minds... And I believe the work He has done in them... And in Samuel and I... has only just begun. He has great plans for us. What Satan meant for Evil, God has and will continue to turn to good.
We have spent the last 3 months starting the process of rebuilding our family. Asking God to forgive us.... And asking Him to help is forgive each other. It hasn't been easy, it still isn't. But with God all things are possible. Satan tried to destroy a family. His goal is to steal, kill and destroy. And he nearly succeeded. But when you have fallen so far. When you are at your very worst. When you can't go on anymore. It's there that you find that you are on your knees and the only way you have left is up. You look up... And there is Jesus. Waiting with open arms. Having been walking beside you the whole time. Waiting for you to turn to Him. That's what happened to me. And in that moment I had a choice. I could either stay in that pit of a life or step out in faith and see what God had to offer. Well... everyone knows I tend to have a stubborn streak. And that's probably putting it mildly. So I decided to stay in that pit. Wallow in my misery. Why should I turn to God now... Where was He when I needed Him most? Why did He let this happen? Yes... I am ashamed to admit, that's where I was. It's then the most amazing thing happened. God sent the most unexpected person into my life to fight for me... Samuel. See God had opened Samuel's eyes. Brought him out of the dark and into the light- that's how he describes it. And something happened to Samuel, I can't really speak for him as to what. But out of nowhere he showed up at my door... Ready to fight for his family. I resisted at first... But as time went on and Samuels persistence continued I was able to start seeing the light in his eyes. I could see the change in him and the fire that now burned inside... And I wanted what he had. I took a leap of faith and stepped back into Jesus... And back into my family. That first step may have been the hardest... But it hasn't been an easy road since. We have our ups and our downs. But we take it one day at a time with the confidence that God will see us through.
This isn't really where I intended this blog to go. But I am reminded of when Jesus told the Pharisees that's those who have been forgiven much, love much. And I never could relate to that scripture before like I do now. I am so thankful to my Savior for His never ending love and mercy. That He poured out his forgiveness on me and washed my slate clean. He pulled me out of that pit of a life that I had dug for myself. He dusted off the ashes of my past. And rather than try and fix what was broken, to rebuild what was destroyed. He said... Lets start new. A new life and a new story. Now the story is going to have all the same main characters (that's the best part) but its not going to have the same ending. See...that's what Jesus is all about. He is about New Life. Whether you have just come to Him for the first time.. Or you have known Him since you were 7, and got a little (or a lot) off track. He is always there waiting for you to take His hand and start over.
Thank you to my family and friends for all your love and support over this last year. And thank you for your prayers... they are needed now as much as ever.
With all my love,
Jess
Friday, June 21, 2013
Monday, March 21, 2011
Dark Circles
Lack of sleep has really been getting to me lately. I find myself more and more frustrated when I have to wake up 4,5 sometimes 6 times a night. I wake up in the morning feeling as tired, if not more tired than I was when I fell asleep. Samuel doesn't seem to understand or even sympathize. This is the worst part of the whole thing... he sleeps through the night and most of the time gets at least 7 hours of sleep. I "sleep" for about 9 hours but I am woke up ever 2 hours and when I wake up I am up for 15-30 minutes to feed and soothe Alice back to sleep, then I have to get myself back to sleep. He acts like I sleep all that 9 hours and have no reason to be tired. So I find myself praying for patience- and lots of it.
Our Realtor is in a meeting today with the Tribe and a non profit organization that is hopefully going to help make our home buying experiance even more exciting than it already is. The idea is that we will find a foreclosed home and the non profit organization will then purchase it. They will rehab the property to make everything up to code so that it can pass the home inspection. We will then purchase the home from them. I am not sure how much updating will be done or how much say we will have in the process, but I am excited to find out if the Tribe will allow this. If so we should be meeting with our realtor shortly to get filled in on the details and hopefully we will be looking at properties within a week or so!
I am still praying that God shows us the home He would have us live in and make this process as smooth as possible.
My nephew, Solomon, turns 1 this week. I can't believe it. It seems like only a few months ago that me and Esther were walking the shopping plaza to try and jump start her labor. Then a day later I was holding that tiny little baby in my arms... now here he is walking and he even says "dada" and "hi". He is such a cute little kid!
This is one of my favorite pictures of Solomon
Alice is borrowing Solomon's old Bumbo. She really likes it. It has been a blessing to me and Samuel because we can put her down for a few minutes to get stuff done. I need to get better about putting her down and cleaning the house. This is my husband's largest complaint. Is that I do not do enough around the house. I try to explain that is is because I am tired but he writes it off as an excuse. He works 40 hours a week and is often the one to clean the home as well. I do need to find the energy to clean up and keep it up. It has always been one of my biggest hurdles. I hate to clean but I need to do it and do it joyfully.
Scripture:
Romans 12:12
Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.
Prayer:
Lord today I find myself wearier than the day before. I pray that you supply the energy I struggle to find. Help Alice rest Lord. I know that you know better than us what is wrong with her little body and you have the ability to heal it. I pray in your name that she be healed. Father teach me to be a better homemaker. Remind me to keep up with the house and do it joyfully. I continue to pray for those in Japan and those effected by the events. Thank you God also for the rain today. It is just what we needed after such hot weather.
Amen
Our Realtor is in a meeting today with the Tribe and a non profit organization that is hopefully going to help make our home buying experiance even more exciting than it already is. The idea is that we will find a foreclosed home and the non profit organization will then purchase it. They will rehab the property to make everything up to code so that it can pass the home inspection. We will then purchase the home from them. I am not sure how much updating will be done or how much say we will have in the process, but I am excited to find out if the Tribe will allow this. If so we should be meeting with our realtor shortly to get filled in on the details and hopefully we will be looking at properties within a week or so!
I am still praying that God shows us the home He would have us live in and make this process as smooth as possible.
My nephew, Solomon, turns 1 this week. I can't believe it. It seems like only a few months ago that me and Esther were walking the shopping plaza to try and jump start her labor. Then a day later I was holding that tiny little baby in my arms... now here he is walking and he even says "dada" and "hi". He is such a cute little kid!
This is one of my favorite pictures of Solomon
Alice is borrowing Solomon's old Bumbo. She really likes it. It has been a blessing to me and Samuel because we can put her down for a few minutes to get stuff done. I need to get better about putting her down and cleaning the house. This is my husband's largest complaint. Is that I do not do enough around the house. I try to explain that is is because I am tired but he writes it off as an excuse. He works 40 hours a week and is often the one to clean the home as well. I do need to find the energy to clean up and keep it up. It has always been one of my biggest hurdles. I hate to clean but I need to do it and do it joyfully.
Scripture:
Romans 12:12
Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.
Prayer:
Lord today I find myself wearier than the day before. I pray that you supply the energy I struggle to find. Help Alice rest Lord. I know that you know better than us what is wrong with her little body and you have the ability to heal it. I pray in your name that she be healed. Father teach me to be a better homemaker. Remind me to keep up with the house and do it joyfully. I continue to pray for those in Japan and those effected by the events. Thank you God also for the rain today. It is just what we needed after such hot weather.
Amen
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
I see Green!
St. Patrick's Day is only 2 days away, not that exciting of a holiday, but another reminder of how fast time is slipping through my fingers. It is already March! My baby girl is 4 months old and I feel like days, weeks, months are just flying by. I try desperately to soak up every second God gives me here on earth.
An 8.9 earthquake struck Japan this last week. Leaving tens of thousands dead, more unaccounted for, and many many more still in danger. As news reports flash across the TV screen of nuclear explosions and meltdowns my heart hurts for those suffering. It also praises God for my own family's safety. I pray for those left in the wake, many hurt without medical help or medication that they need. I pray that God sends them someone to not only help their physical needs but to meet their spiritual ones as well. So that God can be glorified and magnified through the disaster.
This past week has been very busy. Family came down to visit and it was a wonderful time. I miss them so much and it was bittersweet having them here. They were only here for 4 days and all too soon we had to say goodbye. We did have some fun, and some not so fun, experiences. The highlight of the weekend was our trip to the Phoenix Zoo. Elijah just loved seeing all of the animals, again.... and his favorite were by far, the monkeys. I loved getting to spend time with Landon and the kids. All growing too fast. Landon did however come down with the stomach flu, which made the trip not so enjoyable to him and then Aiden got it while at the zoo. By the end of the week Lucas, my mom, Shelly, Grandpa, Holly, John, Elijah and myself had all gotten sick. Samuel and my Grandma I believe were the only ones to escape its nasty clutches. It was worth it though... I would rather have gotten sick and seen them then not.
Another exciting development is that we have finished filling out our Home Loan Application and are almost ready to start looking at houses. We are pre-approved and I could not be more thrilled. Now we just need to pray that God shows us the right home. I am struggling with the location of the home and really need to find where God wants us to be. Originally I had decided on west Chandler. Awesome area, best school district in the city, close to everything... including Sam's parents. But doubt was beginning to sink in. We revisited the area yesterday though and my spirits were renewed. I really love Chandler.
One of my other concerns about moving to Chandler was going to be trying to find a job on that side of town, during summer, with my restricted schedule. However.... I may have the figured out in the form of transferring to 16th Street 5 & Diner. Shea will be there as of April 1st and I feel like this might be the perfect solution. It still will be about a 30 minute drive though.
Alice rolled over this last weekend and has not stop rolling since. The moment I lay her down she rolls over. The smile on her face and light in her eyes as she accomplishes this simple yet monumental task fills me with pure joy. Then she realizes she doesn't like to be on her stomach for long and starts getting mad, which I find the tiniest bit funny. I believe the Zantac has been helping her, but we still wake up 5 or more times a night. As much as I don't want her to grow up on me too fast, I cannot help but pray that she starts sleeping through the night soon. I have learned to function on what sleep I get, but it still is not the same.
Elijah is learning new things so fast. He counts... 1,2,4,8,9,6. Every time. We are working on it though. He can also sort of sing "Jesus Loves Me" and do the sign language with it. He sings part of Twinkle Twinkle Little Star and the ABCs. He is working on spelling his name... he says "E I J A.... all we are missing is L and H. He puts 4,5 and sometimes more words together and is forming short sentences. As fast as he grows he is still mama's Baby. It is so amazing to witness my own love for my child. It truly is a love that cannot be explained or comprehended, only experienced. There are no words to explain how I feel when my son says "Mama, hold me..." and snuggles into my lap, and when I whisper "I love you" he looks me in the eyes with a big grin and says "I love you TOO!"
An 8.9 earthquake struck Japan this last week. Leaving tens of thousands dead, more unaccounted for, and many many more still in danger. As news reports flash across the TV screen of nuclear explosions and meltdowns my heart hurts for those suffering. It also praises God for my own family's safety. I pray for those left in the wake, many hurt without medical help or medication that they need. I pray that God sends them someone to not only help their physical needs but to meet their spiritual ones as well. So that God can be glorified and magnified through the disaster.
This past week has been very busy. Family came down to visit and it was a wonderful time. I miss them so much and it was bittersweet having them here. They were only here for 4 days and all too soon we had to say goodbye. We did have some fun, and some not so fun, experiences. The highlight of the weekend was our trip to the Phoenix Zoo. Elijah just loved seeing all of the animals, again.... and his favorite were by far, the monkeys. I loved getting to spend time with Landon and the kids. All growing too fast. Landon did however come down with the stomach flu, which made the trip not so enjoyable to him and then Aiden got it while at the zoo. By the end of the week Lucas, my mom, Shelly, Grandpa, Holly, John, Elijah and myself had all gotten sick. Samuel and my Grandma I believe were the only ones to escape its nasty clutches. It was worth it though... I would rather have gotten sick and seen them then not.
I love love love this photo.
Me and Alice at the zoo!
Landon, Lucas and Holly
Alice and her Great Grandpa
Elijah, Landon, and Aiden. =]
Alice and her Daddy!
Another exciting development is that we have finished filling out our Home Loan Application and are almost ready to start looking at houses. We are pre-approved and I could not be more thrilled. Now we just need to pray that God shows us the right home. I am struggling with the location of the home and really need to find where God wants us to be. Originally I had decided on west Chandler. Awesome area, best school district in the city, close to everything... including Sam's parents. But doubt was beginning to sink in. We revisited the area yesterday though and my spirits were renewed. I really love Chandler.
One of my other concerns about moving to Chandler was going to be trying to find a job on that side of town, during summer, with my restricted schedule. However.... I may have the figured out in the form of transferring to 16th Street 5 & Diner. Shea will be there as of April 1st and I feel like this might be the perfect solution. It still will be about a 30 minute drive though.
Alice rolled over this last weekend and has not stop rolling since. The moment I lay her down she rolls over. The smile on her face and light in her eyes as she accomplishes this simple yet monumental task fills me with pure joy. Then she realizes she doesn't like to be on her stomach for long and starts getting mad, which I find the tiniest bit funny. I believe the Zantac has been helping her, but we still wake up 5 or more times a night. As much as I don't want her to grow up on me too fast, I cannot help but pray that she starts sleeping through the night soon. I have learned to function on what sleep I get, but it still is not the same.
Elijah is learning new things so fast. He counts... 1,2,4,8,9,6. Every time. We are working on it though. He can also sort of sing "Jesus Loves Me" and do the sign language with it. He sings part of Twinkle Twinkle Little Star and the ABCs. He is working on spelling his name... he says "E I J A.... all we are missing is L and H. He puts 4,5 and sometimes more words together and is forming short sentences. As fast as he grows he is still mama's Baby. It is so amazing to witness my own love for my child. It truly is a love that cannot be explained or comprehended, only experienced. There are no words to explain how I feel when my son says "Mama, hold me..." and snuggles into my lap, and when I whisper "I love you" he looks me in the eyes with a big grin and says "I love you TOO!"
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Chubby Cheeks
I have been so busy, it is hard to find the time to post new things.
My most amazing little girl Alice is considered by many to be a "high needs" baby. Her reflux has meant sore arms and sleepless nights for mommy. She constantly has to be held and entertained. She gets bored easily so we try and switch it up... do new things. She spits up, everywhere! We change her outfit at least 3 times a day and go through more burp cloths and blankets in a day than I can count. Yesterday, after 4 days of her sleeping no more than 30 minutes at a time, day and night, we finally put her on Zantac. Last night she slept 4 hours straight! I was so relieved and feel like a new woman today. I am sure she feels like a new baby, dealing with reflux was no fun for her either!
Although dealing with her reflux and my son's terrible twos is at times difficult, to say the least, I try and remember that these problems are trivial in the grand scheme of things. My children are healthy, happy, and loved. They are growing into amazing individuals and my heart sometimes aches with love for them.
Alice has found her hands. She loves chewing on her fingers. She can bring her hands together and is starting to grab her toes. She is also very strong. She is starting to learn to sit up but still needs some help, she tends to lean to far forward. She talks and smiles. She loves to laugh, and does it a lot! She is a very happy baby.
Alice hates bottles. Although we went through numerous bottles to find one that she tolerates, lately she wants nothing to do with them. She would rather wait the 6 hours until I get home from work to eat, than take a bottle from daddy. It is something we are working on.
Alice is a BIG girl.
As of yesterday at 14 weeks
Weight : 16lb 6oz (HUGE)
Height : 25 in. (although the 2 weeks before she was 27 in. so these measurements are not very accurate)
She wears size 2 diapers and is growing out of her 6 month clothes!
Elijah is growing as well
As of a week ago at 2 years and 2 months
Weight : 27lbs (skinny)
Height : 37 inches (just over 3 feet)
He is still wearing diapers but we are trying to work on potty training. He will go in the potty if I take him, but he will not tell me when he has to go. He is starting to tell us when he has to go #2, so we are getting there!
Some fun things we have done lately.
I bought a new Sit N Stand stroller, which equals a small amount of freedom. I can now take the kids out by myself with out too much difficulty. We can also go to places like the Mall and Zoo, which we couldn't before. I must say, I LOVE this stroller. We debated on whether or not to get a full double that converter, or just the sit n stand. The double was much longer, and felt like driving a bus. This was a much better option and Elijah likes the ability to get in and out when he wants.
For Valentine's day Samuel took us all to the Out of Africa Wildlife Park. We have been wanting to go for a couple years now and just never got around to it. I am glad we went. It was a really good experience and Elijah had a blast! They have over 400 big cats, but my favorite was the "safari" ride. You get in a bus with no windows and they take you out into the "Serengeti." They have animals such as giraffes, camels, zebras, antelope, and ostriches living together. They come right up to the bus for treats and you can feed the giraffes and camel. I was lucky enough to be the recipient of a giraffe "kiss." The tour guide told us to stick treats between our lips and lean out the window. The giraffe licked them right out of your lips! I thought it was great. I will post pics in a separate blog. Gloria has them and I need to get them from her.
Our Valentine's Day dinner was picked by Elijah, he wanted manoodles! So Chinese food it was.
Some exciting things are in the near future. My grandparents (who I love and miss dearly) will be here for a visit in only 10 days! Along with them my Uncle Lucas and Aunt Holly will also be here with their adorable son Landon. Landon is only 2 months older than Elijah. I wish all of these people lived closer to me. I have tried for a year now to convince my grandparents to retire and come live with me. I wish Holly and Luke would move here too. Elijah and Landon would be the best of friends.
Regardless, they will be here for a visit, although short. 2 days... but we have much planned. A trip to the Phoenix Zoo is in order, as well as going to Encanto Park, PF Changs, and maybe squeeze in a trip to the Childrens' Museum, which I have heard wonderful things about but have not had the time to attend.
Samuel and I have also delved into the process of buying a house. This road in itself, is not so easy, but add to it that we are seeking grant money from the Tribe... and it makes it even more difficult. But I am excited and hopeful. Praying that God's will be done and that He shows us what He would have us do and make our path smooth and straight.
During the last 2 weeks I have also joined a Mom's group Bible study at SPBC that my mom is leading. It is The Power of the Praying Woman and I feel that there is much to learn from this study. My prayer life has really been struggling and I find at times Prayer is put on the back burner in my ever busy life.
Mark 11:25
And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins.
Prayer:
Heavenly Father,
Lord, thank you again for all of the many blessings in my life. Thank you for my children, my husband, and my family. I cannot thank you enough for putting them into my life. Thank you for the health and happiness. For providing even when I have doubt. Your Word is true and powerful. Continue to allow me to see all the mighty ways You are working in my life so that I may give You praise. I pray for Alice, Lord, help her muscles develop so that she no longer suffers from her reflux. Thank you for giving me patience and perseverance. Continue to provide me with both. Lord I also ask you to help me forgive others as you have forgiven me. There are people in my life who have hurt me or those I love and I struggle to forgive them. Teach me to love them as you love them. Help me to pray for them instead of resenting them. I want to have a close and open relationship with You and do not want forgiveness to stand between that. If there are others that I need to forgive or resentments that I am harboring in my soul, show them to me. Bring them to light so that I may forgive them. I know that You are working in a powerful and mighty way in the lives of my family. Help us Lord in pursuing the option of buying a house. Open the doors and smooth our paths.
Let all things work to Your glory and honor,
Amen.
My most amazing little girl Alice is considered by many to be a "high needs" baby. Her reflux has meant sore arms and sleepless nights for mommy. She constantly has to be held and entertained. She gets bored easily so we try and switch it up... do new things. She spits up, everywhere! We change her outfit at least 3 times a day and go through more burp cloths and blankets in a day than I can count. Yesterday, after 4 days of her sleeping no more than 30 minutes at a time, day and night, we finally put her on Zantac. Last night she slept 4 hours straight! I was so relieved and feel like a new woman today. I am sure she feels like a new baby, dealing with reflux was no fun for her either!
Although dealing with her reflux and my son's terrible twos is at times difficult, to say the least, I try and remember that these problems are trivial in the grand scheme of things. My children are healthy, happy, and loved. They are growing into amazing individuals and my heart sometimes aches with love for them.
Alice at 3 months!
Alice has found her hands. She loves chewing on her fingers. She can bring her hands together and is starting to grab her toes. She is also very strong. She is starting to learn to sit up but still needs some help, she tends to lean to far forward. She talks and smiles. She loves to laugh, and does it a lot! She is a very happy baby.
There is that thumb
Alice hates bottles. Although we went through numerous bottles to find one that she tolerates, lately she wants nothing to do with them. She would rather wait the 6 hours until I get home from work to eat, than take a bottle from daddy. It is something we are working on.
Alice is a BIG girl.
As of yesterday at 14 weeks
Weight : 16lb 6oz (HUGE)
Height : 25 in. (although the 2 weeks before she was 27 in. so these measurements are not very accurate)
She wears size 2 diapers and is growing out of her 6 month clothes!
Elijah is growing as well
As of a week ago at 2 years and 2 months
Weight : 27lbs (skinny)
Height : 37 inches (just over 3 feet)
He is still wearing diapers but we are trying to work on potty training. He will go in the potty if I take him, but he will not tell me when he has to go. He is starting to tell us when he has to go #2, so we are getting there!
Some fun things we have done lately.
I bought a new Sit N Stand stroller, which equals a small amount of freedom. I can now take the kids out by myself with out too much difficulty. We can also go to places like the Mall and Zoo, which we couldn't before. I must say, I LOVE this stroller. We debated on whether or not to get a full double that converter, or just the sit n stand. The double was much longer, and felt like driving a bus. This was a much better option and Elijah likes the ability to get in and out when he wants.
For Valentine's day Samuel took us all to the Out of Africa Wildlife Park. We have been wanting to go for a couple years now and just never got around to it. I am glad we went. It was a really good experience and Elijah had a blast! They have over 400 big cats, but my favorite was the "safari" ride. You get in a bus with no windows and they take you out into the "Serengeti." They have animals such as giraffes, camels, zebras, antelope, and ostriches living together. They come right up to the bus for treats and you can feed the giraffes and camel. I was lucky enough to be the recipient of a giraffe "kiss." The tour guide told us to stick treats between our lips and lean out the window. The giraffe licked them right out of your lips! I thought it was great. I will post pics in a separate blog. Gloria has them and I need to get them from her.
Our Valentine's Day dinner was picked by Elijah, he wanted manoodles! So Chinese food it was.
Some exciting things are in the near future. My grandparents (who I love and miss dearly) will be here for a visit in only 10 days! Along with them my Uncle Lucas and Aunt Holly will also be here with their adorable son Landon. Landon is only 2 months older than Elijah. I wish all of these people lived closer to me. I have tried for a year now to convince my grandparents to retire and come live with me. I wish Holly and Luke would move here too. Elijah and Landon would be the best of friends.
Regardless, they will be here for a visit, although short. 2 days... but we have much planned. A trip to the Phoenix Zoo is in order, as well as going to Encanto Park, PF Changs, and maybe squeeze in a trip to the Childrens' Museum, which I have heard wonderful things about but have not had the time to attend.
Samuel and I have also delved into the process of buying a house. This road in itself, is not so easy, but add to it that we are seeking grant money from the Tribe... and it makes it even more difficult. But I am excited and hopeful. Praying that God's will be done and that He shows us what He would have us do and make our path smooth and straight.
During the last 2 weeks I have also joined a Mom's group Bible study at SPBC that my mom is leading. It is The Power of the Praying Woman and I feel that there is much to learn from this study. My prayer life has really been struggling and I find at times Prayer is put on the back burner in my ever busy life.
Here is me and the hubby. We really like this picture!
This weeks Bible Study was on Forgiveness and I feel that it is a really important chapter and something I struggle with. I tend to hold grudges... it is something I have done all of my life. Me and God are working on it though and I feel it is important to emphasize the significance of forgiveness in our lives.
Scipture:
And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins.
Prayer:
Heavenly Father,
Lord, thank you again for all of the many blessings in my life. Thank you for my children, my husband, and my family. I cannot thank you enough for putting them into my life. Thank you for the health and happiness. For providing even when I have doubt. Your Word is true and powerful. Continue to allow me to see all the mighty ways You are working in my life so that I may give You praise. I pray for Alice, Lord, help her muscles develop so that she no longer suffers from her reflux. Thank you for giving me patience and perseverance. Continue to provide me with both. Lord I also ask you to help me forgive others as you have forgiven me. There are people in my life who have hurt me or those I love and I struggle to forgive them. Teach me to love them as you love them. Help me to pray for them instead of resenting them. I want to have a close and open relationship with You and do not want forgiveness to stand between that. If there are others that I need to forgive or resentments that I am harboring in my soul, show them to me. Bring them to light so that I may forgive them. I know that You are working in a powerful and mighty way in the lives of my family. Help us Lord in pursuing the option of buying a house. Open the doors and smooth our paths.
Let all things work to Your glory and honor,
Amen.
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Fever
The last couple of days my husband has not been feeling so well. He has been running a fever and having chest pain. Today seems to be better. He called off work and thus we had yesterday, today, and tomorrow to spend together. It's nice having this time as a family.
Today I took the kids to go meet up with my friend Shea and her daughter M (as she is known). It was nice having a friend to chat and swap stories with. It is also good for me. I felt rejuvenated when I got home. It helped that Samuel had been doing quite a bit of cleaning while we were gone. So I came home to a nice surprise. Shea and I went out for coffee at one of our old haunts, the Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf. I love their Caramel Ice Blendeds, even though I don't like coffee :-) We then went to the park and let the kids burn off some energy before heading over to her place. We talked of people we knew, how things were going at work, our kids... it was absolutely wonderful.
Shea and I used be be very close. During our senior year of high school and the year spent after that we were inseparable. She was like the sister I never had. However, we got into a huge fight and not long after that I found out I was pregnant. Things were said, mean hurtful words, and our relationship was just never repaired. After I had Elijah, grew up some, I was able to apologize to her, which was a huge weight off of my shoulders. We gradually started talking more... it helped, her getting pregnant. Even though we were not there for each other during our pregnancies (one of my greatest regrets) I think her becoming a mommy helped us see eye to eye once again. I really hope Shea and I can continue to share a friendship.
Christmas and New Years went really well. Elijah and Alice got more toys than they could possibly need. Our family is so generous. We ate and spent time with family, trying to make sure we spent enough time with everyone. It gets hard juggling all of the parents! New Years was pretty quiet. More food and some fireworks out at the Ranch. Along with a game of cranium, in which the girls, once again, dominated!
There have been some exciting developments with Alice! She LAUGHED! The day before she turned 2 months old she decided to share her delightful giggle with the world. It was her brother that caused it and I was lucky enough to catch the chuckle on camera. Since then she has been giggling for us on a daily basis. Mostly it is her father and Elijah that she laughs at... with all of their silly antics and funny faces... she probably thinks she was born to a bunch of crazies!
I love this life. I love this family. For dinner we had Nachos and they were delish!
Well Alice is crying and Elijah doesn't seem to want to go to bed... so off to take care of the kiddos.
Night!
Proverbs 27:9
The heartfelt counsel of a friend is as sweet as perfume and incense.
Today I took the kids to go meet up with my friend Shea and her daughter M (as she is known). It was nice having a friend to chat and swap stories with. It is also good for me. I felt rejuvenated when I got home. It helped that Samuel had been doing quite a bit of cleaning while we were gone. So I came home to a nice surprise. Shea and I went out for coffee at one of our old haunts, the Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf. I love their Caramel Ice Blendeds, even though I don't like coffee :-) We then went to the park and let the kids burn off some energy before heading over to her place. We talked of people we knew, how things were going at work, our kids... it was absolutely wonderful.
Shea and I used be be very close. During our senior year of high school and the year spent after that we were inseparable. She was like the sister I never had. However, we got into a huge fight and not long after that I found out I was pregnant. Things were said, mean hurtful words, and our relationship was just never repaired. After I had Elijah, grew up some, I was able to apologize to her, which was a huge weight off of my shoulders. We gradually started talking more... it helped, her getting pregnant. Even though we were not there for each other during our pregnancies (one of my greatest regrets) I think her becoming a mommy helped us see eye to eye once again. I really hope Shea and I can continue to share a friendship.
Christmas and New Years went really well. Elijah and Alice got more toys than they could possibly need. Our family is so generous. We ate and spent time with family, trying to make sure we spent enough time with everyone. It gets hard juggling all of the parents! New Years was pretty quiet. More food and some fireworks out at the Ranch. Along with a game of cranium, in which the girls, once again, dominated!
There have been some exciting developments with Alice! She LAUGHED! The day before she turned 2 months old she decided to share her delightful giggle with the world. It was her brother that caused it and I was lucky enough to catch the chuckle on camera. Since then she has been giggling for us on a daily basis. Mostly it is her father and Elijah that she laughs at... with all of their silly antics and funny faces... she probably thinks she was born to a bunch of crazies!
I love this life. I love this family. For dinner we had Nachos and they were delish!
Well Alice is crying and Elijah doesn't seem to want to go to bed... so off to take care of the kiddos.
Night!
Proverbs 27:9
The heartfelt counsel of a friend is as sweet as perfume and incense.
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Frizzy Hair
So it has been raining for almost a week now! Crazy weather for Arizona so close to Christmas.
Only 2 1/2 days left... all the festivities start tomorrow. I am really excited!
Samuel and I have not gone shopping for each other or the kids yet. (well Sam did get his scope) We decided we were going to do Christmas after Christmas. See what the kids get and then figure out what they still need before we go on any type of shopping spree. Plus the funds are not really there right now.
We made presents at As You Wish for all the Grandparents this year. We used the kid's hand prints and footprints to decorate plates, that are being turned into clocks, and a vase. I really liked how they looked and hope they turn out great after firing. I pick them up tomorrow.
Sunday through Wednesday of this week I watched a friend of mine, Brandy's, youngest kids. Brandy was scheduled for an induction on Tuesday morning and I wanted to help her by watching the kids for her and Jeff. Grace and Noah are 5 and 3, add that to my 2 and 6 week old... and we had a full, very busy house.
I think I surprised myself with how well I did. Samuel was at work so it was just me and the munchkins. We had a few moments that were not so great, and taking them to As You Wish was a CRAZY idea... but all in all in went really well. I was glad to help and glad to see the kids again.
I thought when my children were born that I loved them so much I would burst. But as they grow, I can honestly say I love them more and more each day. I don't know how it is possible, but I do.
My son with his big brown eyes and mischievous little grin can melt my heart in less than a second. He is learning and growing so fast. Everyday he says new words out of no where, like he has been saying them his whole life. He is putting 2 and even 3 words together at a time. Before I know it he will be speaking in full sentences. I can't even imagine that!
My daughter, 7 weeks old today, with her cherub cheeks and sweet smiles. She loves her daddy. Always gives him big grins. Actually she loves men in general. She smiles and John and my Dad a lot as well. She smiled so big at Sam the other day and was cooing a whole bunch, it looked like she was about to laugh. Too soon she feels so much bigger in my arms and she is gaining weight so quickly. Samuel can not wait to see what she will be like when she is Elijah's age. He is such a good daddy... how did I get so lucky? To have not only a wonderful husband but my children have the best father. His love for them radiates from him. As big and intimidating as he may seem to some, he is just a big softy at heart. Cuddling with his son and talking baby talk to his daughter. These are moments that make me love him only more.
Scripture:
Train up a child in the way he should go; even when he is old he will not depart from it.
Proverbs 22:6
Prayer:
Lord thank you for my children. Thank you for the health and vitality. They are both amazing individuals and I love them so very much. I ask that you help me and Samuel to continue to raise them up in Your ways Lord. Help us make You the center of their lives. Give us patience and understanding. Guard their hearts God. The world is a terrible place, and seems to only get more horrible as time goes on... protect them from evil.
Thank you for my husband as well Lord. Continue to give him wisdom in leading our family. Bless him Lord for his sacrifices that he makes for us. Give him energy when he feels like he has nothing left.
I pray also for my dad and Cheryl. Let my family and I be a beacon of light for You. Let them see our joy and love and know it is You who strengthens us. Give us an opportunity to witness to them, to share Your love, and let them come to know You because of it. Thank you again for sending Your Son do die on the cross for my sins.
Amen
Only 2 1/2 days left... all the festivities start tomorrow. I am really excited!
Samuel and I have not gone shopping for each other or the kids yet. (well Sam did get his scope) We decided we were going to do Christmas after Christmas. See what the kids get and then figure out what they still need before we go on any type of shopping spree. Plus the funds are not really there right now.
We made presents at As You Wish for all the Grandparents this year. We used the kid's hand prints and footprints to decorate plates, that are being turned into clocks, and a vase. I really liked how they looked and hope they turn out great after firing. I pick them up tomorrow.
Sunday through Wednesday of this week I watched a friend of mine, Brandy's, youngest kids. Brandy was scheduled for an induction on Tuesday morning and I wanted to help her by watching the kids for her and Jeff. Grace and Noah are 5 and 3, add that to my 2 and 6 week old... and we had a full, very busy house.
I think I surprised myself with how well I did. Samuel was at work so it was just me and the munchkins. We had a few moments that were not so great, and taking them to As You Wish was a CRAZY idea... but all in all in went really well. I was glad to help and glad to see the kids again.
I thought when my children were born that I loved them so much I would burst. But as they grow, I can honestly say I love them more and more each day. I don't know how it is possible, but I do.
My son with his big brown eyes and mischievous little grin can melt my heart in less than a second. He is learning and growing so fast. Everyday he says new words out of no where, like he has been saying them his whole life. He is putting 2 and even 3 words together at a time. Before I know it he will be speaking in full sentences. I can't even imagine that!
My daughter, 7 weeks old today, with her cherub cheeks and sweet smiles. She loves her daddy. Always gives him big grins. Actually she loves men in general. She smiles and John and my Dad a lot as well. She smiled so big at Sam the other day and was cooing a whole bunch, it looked like she was about to laugh. Too soon she feels so much bigger in my arms and she is gaining weight so quickly. Samuel can not wait to see what she will be like when she is Elijah's age. He is such a good daddy... how did I get so lucky? To have not only a wonderful husband but my children have the best father. His love for them radiates from him. As big and intimidating as he may seem to some, he is just a big softy at heart. Cuddling with his son and talking baby talk to his daughter. These are moments that make me love him only more.
Scripture:
Train up a child in the way he should go; even when he is old he will not depart from it.
Proverbs 22:6
Prayer:
Lord thank you for my children. Thank you for the health and vitality. They are both amazing individuals and I love them so very much. I ask that you help me and Samuel to continue to raise them up in Your ways Lord. Help us make You the center of their lives. Give us patience and understanding. Guard their hearts God. The world is a terrible place, and seems to only get more horrible as time goes on... protect them from evil.
Thank you for my husband as well Lord. Continue to give him wisdom in leading our family. Bless him Lord for his sacrifices that he makes for us. Give him energy when he feels like he has nothing left.
I pray also for my dad and Cheryl. Let my family and I be a beacon of light for You. Let them see our joy and love and know it is You who strengthens us. Give us an opportunity to witness to them, to share Your love, and let them come to know You because of it. Thank you again for sending Your Son do die on the cross for my sins.
Amen
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Angel Kisses
This Holiday season has been very busy. The piles of unfolded clothes, sink full of dirty dishes and food-less refrigerator are testament to my lack of time spent at home lately. (and my lack of motivation when I have been home :-)
My first day back at work went well. As did yesterday, although for a Saturday I was highly disappointed in the lack of customers throughout the night.
Friday we went to Glendale Glitters. We took both Elijah and Alice. Gloria, Norm, Nate, Jassem, Esther and Solomon all came. It was a great family affair. Before we went to see the lights we all ate at the Chinese Buffet, Samuel was very happy about that! Downtown Glendale was a madhouse. It was too crowded to really enjoy the lights and booths. The kiddie rides, like always, were way overpriced. Luckily Elijah doesn't know we skipped those.
I did get to check out the new children boutique that opened and grabbed two handmade beanies for Alice. Which then resulted in me doing a mini photo shoot with my phone on Saturday while Samuel was at work and Elijah was at Grandma Gloria's for the weekend (God Bless her for this. She takes Elijah for the weekend every other month or so and this gives Samuel and I some much needed time to ourselves... well us plus Alice now.)
Today we took Alice to see her first movie in the theater. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1. (Have you seen a longer movie title?) It was VERY good and I have to admit I was surprised. The others have failed to impress me, but this one both Samuel and I, really enjoyed. Alice however was not as thrilled and slept through the whole thing. (Which was what mommy and daddy were hoping would happen!) It had been a long time since we had been to see a movie so it was a really great morning.
Last night I picked out an Angel Tree at Walmart. A 5 year old girl who needs clothes and wants a Barbie. I got her a cute little dress with leggings and a Fairy Barbie. For about $15 I have made some little girl's Christmas a tad bit brighter. I too often think about how little money we have to buy our loved one's gifts this holiday season. When the fact is... my family and I have all we need, and then some. So I made it a point to spend some of our money on someone who is far less fortunate than ourselves even if it means that I have to spend a little less on someone else, it's a very small sacrifice (if you can even call it that) to make.
Today was Sunday and we did not go to church... again. We need to go next Sunday.
Scripture
Proverbs 19:17
He who is kind to the poor lends to the LORD, and he will reward him for what he has done.
Luke 6:38
Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.
Prayer
Dear God,
As Christmas quickly approaches help me remember it's true meaning. That I am celebrating the birth of our Savior, Jesus Christ and all that He did for us. From His teachings while on earth to His death on the cross. Let me not have a greedy heart. Thank you for reminding me, in the simplest ways, that I have so much to be thankful for. That you continue to provide and I in turn am expected to pass the blessings You poor out onto others. I pray for my Angel Tree Rosaline. God give her peace, joy and happiness not only this holiday season but all the year long. Let her needs be met and Your will done in her life. Bring someone to plant the seed of the Love of Jesus into her young heart. Thank you for giving my family a great time together this weekend. For keeping us safe, healthy and happy.
Father I also pray for my Aunt Holly. She lost her dear friend, Lissa, on Wednesday. Lord I do not know if she knew You as her Lord and Savior. If she did, I am happy that she has gone to a better place and give Holly and Lissa's other friends and family comfort in that fact. If not, God let this be a reminder to not only Holly, but myself and all those who know about her tragic death, that time is short! That it is important we share the message of your Saving Grace with all of those we come in contact with. For we do not know the day nor the hour that we or anyone else will leave this earth.
Lastly Lord. I have never lost a very close loved one. I thank you and praise you for that. I cannot imagine loosing anyone close to my heart. Continue to keep my family and friends safe and healthy. Put a hedge of Angels around each one so that they may be protected from all harm and evil that is Satan.
Give us all a good nights rest and bring Samuel home safe from work.
In Jesus' Name I pray,
Amen
My first day back at work went well. As did yesterday, although for a Saturday I was highly disappointed in the lack of customers throughout the night.
Friday we went to Glendale Glitters. We took both Elijah and Alice. Gloria, Norm, Nate, Jassem, Esther and Solomon all came. It was a great family affair. Before we went to see the lights we all ate at the Chinese Buffet, Samuel was very happy about that! Downtown Glendale was a madhouse. It was too crowded to really enjoy the lights and booths. The kiddie rides, like always, were way overpriced. Luckily Elijah doesn't know we skipped those.
I did get to check out the new children boutique that opened and grabbed two handmade beanies for Alice. Which then resulted in me doing a mini photo shoot with my phone on Saturday while Samuel was at work and Elijah was at Grandma Gloria's for the weekend (God Bless her for this. She takes Elijah for the weekend every other month or so and this gives Samuel and I some much needed time to ourselves... well us plus Alice now.)
Sleeping sweetly
Beautiful in Butterflies
Loving my Chunky Monkey!
And last but not least just for kicks....
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Look what Santa left in our stocking!
Ya she doesn't look to pleased at me for this one...
Today we took Alice to see her first movie in the theater. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1. (Have you seen a longer movie title?) It was VERY good and I have to admit I was surprised. The others have failed to impress me, but this one both Samuel and I, really enjoyed. Alice however was not as thrilled and slept through the whole thing. (Which was what mommy and daddy were hoping would happen!) It had been a long time since we had been to see a movie so it was a really great morning.
Last night I picked out an Angel Tree at Walmart. A 5 year old girl who needs clothes and wants a Barbie. I got her a cute little dress with leggings and a Fairy Barbie. For about $15 I have made some little girl's Christmas a tad bit brighter. I too often think about how little money we have to buy our loved one's gifts this holiday season. When the fact is... my family and I have all we need, and then some. So I made it a point to spend some of our money on someone who is far less fortunate than ourselves even if it means that I have to spend a little less on someone else, it's a very small sacrifice (if you can even call it that) to make.
Today was Sunday and we did not go to church... again. We need to go next Sunday.
Scripture
Proverbs 19:17
He who is kind to the poor lends to the LORD, and he will reward him for what he has done.
Luke 6:38
Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.
Prayer
Dear God,
As Christmas quickly approaches help me remember it's true meaning. That I am celebrating the birth of our Savior, Jesus Christ and all that He did for us. From His teachings while on earth to His death on the cross. Let me not have a greedy heart. Thank you for reminding me, in the simplest ways, that I have so much to be thankful for. That you continue to provide and I in turn am expected to pass the blessings You poor out onto others. I pray for my Angel Tree Rosaline. God give her peace, joy and happiness not only this holiday season but all the year long. Let her needs be met and Your will done in her life. Bring someone to plant the seed of the Love of Jesus into her young heart. Thank you for giving my family a great time together this weekend. For keeping us safe, healthy and happy.
Father I also pray for my Aunt Holly. She lost her dear friend, Lissa, on Wednesday. Lord I do not know if she knew You as her Lord and Savior. If she did, I am happy that she has gone to a better place and give Holly and Lissa's other friends and family comfort in that fact. If not, God let this be a reminder to not only Holly, but myself and all those who know about her tragic death, that time is short! That it is important we share the message of your Saving Grace with all of those we come in contact with. For we do not know the day nor the hour that we or anyone else will leave this earth.
Lastly Lord. I have never lost a very close loved one. I thank you and praise you for that. I cannot imagine loosing anyone close to my heart. Continue to keep my family and friends safe and healthy. Put a hedge of Angels around each one so that they may be protected from all harm and evil that is Satan.
Give us all a good nights rest and bring Samuel home safe from work.
In Jesus' Name I pray,
Amen
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